Cellular Level

The shift I had before was 11pm-9am. I worked monday through thursday. Beth usually works 4-8 or 4-10 on weekdays. Since she started school again it appeared she would be gone every evening for at least 4 hours. Usually 6-8. We also talked before about if I could find an evening job that she would at least attempt having a set weekend day off. I think that's fair. Commit to one weekend day. Be given the other off. Especially since she has seniority over a lot of the people there. Should seriously not be a problem.

She only likes to have sex in the evening or at night. Usually only ever at night. My working 11-9 meant I had to stop whatever I was doing around 10pm and get a shower and everything and leave by 10:30 to be there on time. Her working 'till 8 or 10 meant either sex before work was consistantly time constrained and rushed or impossible.

She seemed to always be staying awake 'till 1-2+am. Every time I asked when she went to bed the night before she would always say late, I don't remember. or say like 1:30, 2, close to 3, etc.

I love her quite a bit. I always look for ways to spend more time with her. And I'm addicted to sex, so of course I'm always looking for ways to try and happen into those situations as often as possible too. So, since she started school again and time with her was getting cut down considerably, I wanted to get a second shift job.

The guy I originally started working for, whom I really like working for, got switched to another location. And he was almost entirely out of staff. One of the shifts he had open was 3-11pm. Perfect. And it involved a pay raise. Problem is, now I'm only seeing her when she's sleeping. Seems now she's asleep or trying to go to sleep by the time I get home at 11:20ish.

Such as tonight. I came in about 11:15. Sound asleep in bed. I woke her up and asked if she intended to sleep all through the night. Checking to see if she was napping. She doesn't intend to get up.

So this begs the question, what the fuck? Feels like I fucked myself out of a lot more time with her. And to make it even more irritating I asked her the other day if she had attempted getting a weekend day off. She was like "They don't even hire people who say they need this or that weekend day off."


Yeah. They don't hire people like that. That's to try and keep out lazy people who care more about partying than their job. I know managers and I've been a team leader enough to know -- if you've been there for a while and earned the respect of your heads enough to be a front end supervisor......

....pretty damn sure you could get a set weekend day off if you just tried.

But whatever. She wasn't even open to the idea at all.

Guess it's the spreading 'Erik is Shit' disease that I can't stop from manifesting everywhere. I think I'm a pretty god damn likable guy for the most part. Have best intentions. May be spoiled and have twisted views of things. I really don't think I'm all that bad. Seems I'm friend or distant aquantance materiel.

Very irritating.

Posted by pointofaccess at 9:23 PM | Permalink | Comments

CLINTON . ON FOX NEWS


CLINTON . ON DAILY SHOW


I saw Clinton on the Daily Show. I always liked him when he was in office. Always laughed about the huge deal about a blowjob from an ugly chick. As if every other president in office hasn't done that and much more.

Recently he's been in the news quite a bit. His cabinet too. And basically the more it goes on the more I'm reminded how much I liked him before. Can we replace this illiterate fuck in office now with Clinton? Please?

Posted by pointofaccess at 7:48 AM | Permalink | Comments

real fucking nervous about starting this 3-11 shift in a different house with 1 guy who doesn't talk and another guy like skinny who looks mad rattier heh

Posted by pointofaccess at 7:52 AM | Permalink | Comments

[19:46] SymphonyofNoise: so dippy
[19:46] SymphonyofNoise: did mom ever say anything about that link rather than "how am i crazy" or whatever it is and "it's cleaner now"? heh
[19:47] JamesPetiteAnge: well she talked about her and gpa's will and how i guess you're not gonna be in them anymore. and she asked if he asked to talk to "mom" when you wanted me to give her the phone.. i couldn't really remember, but she said if you asked to talk to "mom" again, that i should say that she's dead (meaning grandma, i guess)
[19:47] SymphonyofNoise: dont care
[19:48] SymphonyofNoise: ahahahahhaha
[19:48] SymphonyofNoise: that's fine
[19:48] SymphonyofNoise: puppetmaster can dictate grandpa's will all she wants
[19:48] JamesPetiteAnge: i think he wants money back on the computer and stuff too haha
[19:49] SymphonyofNoise: that's nice
[19:49] SymphonyofNoise: I want a family that isn't fucked
[19:49] SymphonyofNoise: besides you and craig that is
[19:49] JamesPetiteAnge: yeah
[19:49] SymphonyofNoise: too bad none of it's going to happen
[19:50] SymphonyofNoise: he's taking me out of his will
[19:50] SymphonyofNoise: so I'll accept the computer as his afterlife gift
[19:50] SymphonyofNoise: and i guarantee you if mom wasn't hard wired into his brain things would be 100% different between him and i
[19:50] SymphonyofNoise: that worthless piece of 'i hurrrrrrrt' shit
[19:51] SymphonyofNoise: fuck her
[19:51] JamesPetiteAnge: lmao
[19:51] SymphonyofNoise: what's she going to do when you turn 18 and leave and grandpa's dead and she's all alone
[19:51] JamesPetiteAnge: no ida
[19:51] JamesPetiteAnge: idea
[19:51] SymphonyofNoise: kill herself hopefully
[19:51] JamesPetiteAnge: oh and now she's saying she'll pay someone $1,000 if they find her a guy and they're married for at least 5 years.
[19:52] SymphonyofNoise: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
[19:52] JamesPetiteAnge: i know
[19:52] SymphonyofNoise: that's fucking outstanding
[19:52] JamesPetiteAnge: and btw i'm seriously considering moving to ohio after i graduate, but i don't know exactly how that's gonna work out
[19:52] SymphonyofNoise: that's cool
[19:53] SymphonyofNoise: I dont blame you
[19:53] SymphonyofNoise: get as far away from mom and her puppet (grandpa) as you can
[19:53] JamesPetiteAnge: haahah
[19:53] SymphonyofNoise: beth and I are moving to one of these as soon as we can -- a coast, australia, europe
[19:53] SymphonyofNoise: she wants away from her family
[19:53] JamesPetiteAnge: i wanna go to australia next year!
[19:53] SymphonyofNoise: I want as far away from the piece of shit and grandpa as i can
[19:54] JamesPetiteAnge: i got this thing from this people to people student ambassador progam haha
[19:54] SymphonyofNoise: cool
[19:54] JamesPetiteAnge: and they want me to go to australia//new zealand
[19:54] SymphonyofNoise: wait i forgot to ask
[19:54] SymphonyofNoise: she said nothing of wanting me to take those pics down?
[19:54] JamesPetiteAnge: nope
[19:54] SymphonyofNoise: bahahahahaha
[19:54] SymphonyofNoise: wonder if she knows there's so much hype over symphonyofnoise.net opening that it gets over 500 unique hits a day
[19:54] SymphonyofNoise: and we haven't even started local advertising yet
[19:55] SymphonyofNoise: that's fine
[19:55] JamesPetiteAnge: haha nice
[19:55] SymphonyofNoise: she can fuck herself
[19:55] JamesPetiteAnge: ew
[19:55] SymphonyofNoise: you know what I mean
[19:55] JamesPetiteAnge: i know
[19:55] JamesPetiteAnge: just the phrasing :(
[19:55] JamesPetiteAnge: which reminded me of something i want to forget, and have forgotten now until you just said that.
[19:55] SymphonyofNoise: what?
[19:55] SymphonyofNoise: I'm afraid
[19:55] JamesPetiteAnge: ahahahah
[19:55] SymphonyofNoise: tell me though
[19:55] JamesPetiteAnge: you don't wanna know
[19:55] SymphonyofNoise: dont be the only one knowing that sick shit
[19:55] JamesPetiteAnge: ahahahaha
[19:55] SymphonyofNoise: I know enough sick shit about that worthless oxygen converter
[19:56] JamesPetiteAnge: so for some reason she told me she orgasmed from a dream.
[19:56] SymphonyofNoise: that's it?
[19:57] JamesPetiteAnge: yeah
[19:57] JamesPetiteAnge: but it's gross :(
[19:58] SymphonyofNoise: i know seriously terrible shit about the oxygen converter
[19:58] SymphonyofNoise: i wish i could forget but can't
[19:58] JamesPetiteAnge: like what
[19:59] SymphonyofNoise: bob and I were talking
[19:59] SymphonyofNoise: we were talking about sex stuff and he mentioned he loves eating out
[19:59] SymphonyofNoise: and I'm like, I've tried it but only do it when asked
[19:59] SymphonyofNoise: he said mom loves it and he did it for an hour last night
[19:59] SymphonyofNoise: and I sat and thought about it for a minute
[19:59] SymphonyofNoise: that was when mom was heavily bleeding for like 4 months
[19:59] SymphonyofNoise: and he told me that about 2 months in
[19:59] JamesPetiteAnge: ahahahaha
[19:59] SymphonyofNoise: you do the math
[19:59] JamesPetiteAnge: ..........
[20:00] JamesPetiteAnge: he earned his red wings!
[20:00] SymphonyofNoise: last time I talked about anything like that with bob
[20:00] JamesPetiteAnge: aahahaha
[20:00] SymphonyofNoise: so disgusting
[20:00] SymphonyofNoise: i have and will never earn those
[20:00] JamesPetiteAnge: have you seen cruel intentions
[20:01] SymphonyofNoise: yes
[20:01] JamesPetiteAnge: do you like it
[20:02] SymphonyofNoise: ehh
[20:02] SymphonyofNoise: I think there was a lot of bad acting in it
[20:02] JamesPetiteAnge: i'm watching beautiful mind in one of my classes :D
[20:13] SymphonyofNoise: god i hate mom
[20:13] SymphonyofNoise: DADDY DADDY
[20:13] SymphonyofNoise: MY SON HATES ME DADDY DADDY
[20:14] SymphonyofNoise: IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU DADDY, HE LOVES YOU AND WISHES HE COULD HELP YOU MORE DADDY BUT HE HATES ME SO HELP ME MAKE HIS LIFE HELL DADDY NO
[20:14] SymphonyofNoise: what a dumb cunt
[20:14] SymphonyofNoise: as if he helps or talks to me anyway
[20:14] SymphonyofNoise: well, last couple years anyway

Posted by pointofaccess at 8:14 PM | Permalink | Comments

The world hates america because we're so god damn pig headed. Our government stomps around the world like they own the god damn thing. Sure, we've done some good deeds. Helped with Hitler and a few other scattered positive things. That doesn't outweigh the spread of our business disease that destroys so much. That doesn't mean we get to push our beliefs into other countries leaving paths of destruction.

The War on Drugs, which a lot of the world either adopts out of fear of being attacked more by us, or openly disagrees with. TERRORISM, HELLO.

We ask places all over the world if we can set up bases when they ask for help, promising it's temporary while we're helping -- then don't leave. Not only do they not leave, but they spread business disaese while they're there.

We went into Iraq basically on our own without the backing of, well, anyone really. Brittain? We're their children, of course they helped. We burned that bridge though. Who else contributed as much as them? Nobody thought it was a good idea, because, OMG, it's a bad idea and they knew it then and it's proven now. But we were like FUCK YOU GUYS, WE'RE DOING IT. As usual.

And the only thing notable that's happened to us is 9.11. OH NO!

Wake up fuckers, nobody's going to stop tryign to attack us until we stop being assholes.

----- REPOST THIS IF YOU AGREE AMERICA SHOULD STOP PRETENDING IT'S UNTOUCHABLE AND RUNNING AROUND THE WORLD LIKE CHILDREN WHO THINK THEY CAN DO ANYTHING ------

Posted by pointofaccess at 7:53 AM | Permalink | Comments

---------------- unrelated --------

[09:01] buckcherrycrazybit4u: all i learned was that i had to shoot a 4 yr old boy and kill him because i was told to
[09:01] distantmirage: hah
[09:01] distantmirage: well
[09:01] distantmirage: after that, have fun supporting the country :P
[09:02] distantmirage: if we got invaded by anyone but china, I'd give them a road map to important places haha
[09:02] distantmirage: "take these business assholes out of the white house please"
[09:02] distantmirage: -pat on the back-
[09:02] distantmirage: GO!
[09:02] distantmirage: hahaha

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I posted this yesterday while adding to symphonyofnoise.net preparing it for it's launch. Shortly after adding it I showed my sister and then later called mom and told her Christa had a link for her to look at. I fucking hate my mother.

and to further the laughter I had, the only rebuttle she had was --

[16:18] SymphonyofNoise: what did mom have to say about it? :P
[16:18] JamesPetiteAnge: she was commenting on how the house looks better now
[16:19] JamesPetiteAnge: and she was commenting on the "lunacy" part like "omg how am i like that"

Posted by pointofaccess at 7:09 AM | Permalink | Comments

Here's to hoping something massive gets blown up to entertain me day. I don't even care if it's Stratcom and I go up with it.

Posted by pointofaccess at 7:02 AM | Permalink | Comments

FORGOT THE GOD DAMN REASON I MEANT TO MAKE THIS POST haha

i believe it was thursday. We went for a looooooooong ass walk and took shadow with us. Before we left we already ahd a weed wacker at home so i could do the weeds around the lawn that didn't get pulled from the front. after we went for a long shadow killing walk we went to matts to borrow his lawn mower. the lawn was getting long. wasnt long, wasnt really long at all. but it was geting close enoug hthat we could justify spending gas money mowing it. was days away from being long enough to even produce seeds. not too long. not even fucking close.

so we get home, take the mower out of the back an di'm like, what the fuck, why the fuck is the .... the grass is mowed isnt it..

yep, grass was mowed. the edges were crap, looked like they took ariding mower and missed the vast majority of the edges. guess he was going to go around wit hthe edger and finish p or whatever.

well the mower guy was riding around as we were on the way home. he was putting his mower into the trailer shortly after i went outside to start yard work and i yelled and asked him if he had mowed here. he said yep, i said cool. i asked why and he said howdy told him to and i just laughed and smiled. he saw me hooking up the edger and i started weed whacking like a mother whore.

a little while later i heard a gas powered weed whacker going. soon i noticed it was in the yard. iwalked to the back of the trailer to find him coming around that side. i told him, get out. the conversation went something like:

'get out'
'what?'
'get out of the yard'
'why?'
'i'm doing it, get out'
'doesnt matter if i finish or not you're still getting charged'
'i dont care, we're not paying for this shit, didn't need done'
'well you'll have to talk to howdy'
'ahhaha, tell him to get his ass down here and talk to me'
'okay' (said in a "yeah right, sure" kind of tone)

i think there was something else said and I said I don't care, get out and he took his shit and left.

howdy never showed. howdy doo-dah hillbilly fuck. Fuck him.

Posted by pointofaccess at 7:26 PM | Permalink | Comments

not for you. for me.

tongiht: drunk.

MASS BACKSPACING TO FIX TYPOS.

let me look at what was typed last.

week ago. wonderful. monday through whatever went veryw ell bvecause SHORTY was able to wake up at a fairly early hour and we got to work usually before they needed to be there. was a good work week.

friday though was the day that dan and whoiiever else was going to walk through the houses and do whatever inspection thing. that day at 8:20ish am lanie decided to call me and tell me that she had been finding this and that wrong at the house for a while since she started when she was checking up on me after i clocked off and left. she chose to tell me this shit about a half an hour before i was scheduled off work before a fucking massive MAYBE 4 TIMES A MONTH INSPECTION. so naturally, i had cleaned as much as i knew needed cleaned based on what i saw was dirty accoreding to what i care about.

so yeah. i cleaned 'till about 20 after. they bitch SO MUCH about people getting overtime. i didnt get overtime approvbed to clean the house as much as i could and CHRISTY decided not to clean shit most of her shifts before i came in. she claims she cleaned thursday night but she's absolutely full of shit too. the place was several times cleaner when i left friday morning than it was when i came in thursday night. so if i get in trouble for it looking like shit i'll make damn sure to drag her down with me. i'm applying to be in a house that is run by an old manager who isn't a rotting malcommunicative piece of shit like lanie. hopefully in 2 weeks i'll be out from under her worthlessness.

today i helped robert out by working an 8 hours of overtimes hift at janan. was the most boring shift ever because the dude i was taking care of is shy and hung out in his room the enitre time. fine i guess. gave me time to work on something for jacob and take a couple cat naps haha. fuck it

and now i drank a bvit, beth's dad made a funny, balloons, june comments, mass war rock

been working on soncom and sonnet a lot the alst few days.. havent done much audio wokr beyond lots of larry wake up cd work

k i'm done typoing

Posted by pointofaccess at 7:08 PM | Permalink | Comments

The plan for the weekend was this:

FRIDAY NIGHT:
Spend it with Beth. When she fell asleep, work on separating sound files and getting everything organized. Put it off this previous install.

SATURDAY:
Continue splitting up files until I'm done. Then start work on audio once again. Spend some time with Beth in the evening then continue once she goes to bed.

SUNDAY:
spend time with Beth during the day and work on audio from the time she goes to work 'till she gets back (at least 8 hours.)

WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED:
Beth and I hung out a bit Friday. Got a call to pick up Becky from Ricky's. While waiting for that Beth gets a call from her Mom asking what I was doing Saturday. I told them I had plans because I did and I really wanted to get working on it all. Kelly basically said My plans were changed and I was going to help Mary clean the trailer and do yard work. I was pissed off about that because if she was going to just have me help Mary she should have just said I'm sending Mary over tomorrow and I need you there to help her. Don't even ask if I have anything planned for tomorrow if you're going to force something on me anyway. On top of that, what eclipsed all other reasons for irritation or anger was the fact there was no direct communication with me. One of the things I got to hear about was there was a weed notice that went out and all the weeds in the neighborhood we live in had to be taken care of or they were going to come through and do it for everyone and charge. I wasn't told this. There were no warnings. I didn't think there were any weeds really to worry about. I wasn't told "hey, you guys need to get rid of weeds. Evidently there are a bunch that need taken care of. There's a problem. Take care of it." It was just, Mary's coming over because you guys aren't taking care of shit. ...... shit we didn't know was in need of taking care of. So I was pretty pissed. I vented to Becky about it and told her since my day was forcibly fucked in such a way I was ditching out. Dropped her off at home. After that I started audio splitting in the evening and ended up falling asleep with Beth later on.

SATURDAY:
Woke up and chilled with Beth before she went to work. When she left I got some stuff done and left before the time Mary was supposed to show up. Becky had said the day before that she would have me run her around so that I had something to do while I was dodging Mary. I texted her and then called her about two hours after that. No response or answer. I realized I was getting ditched and figured, fuck it, I'll go home and help Mary. On the way home it started to rain so that meant all the yard work was out of the question. It was one of those rains that clearly wasn't stopping for several hours -- and it didn't. I got home and Mary wasn't even there. Phillip was and he said she wasn't there and he said she probably wasn't since it was raining. So I sat around waiting just in case 'cause I didn't want to get into something then get stopped in the middle. I loathe having to stop a project partially through. I finally got bored enough that I was dead tired so I figured I would nap 'till she got there. I woke up to Beth getting home which meant it was about 4:30pm. No Mary. She obviously wasn't coming. So I continued audio splitting and hung out with Beth. Ended up falling asleep again with her rather than working on Audio more after she fell asleep.

SUNDAY:


Woke up. Cooked breakfast for Beth and I. We ran to the store. She was doing something in the bathroom and I was working on getting audio sorted more. Was on a pretty damn good roll. I heard Shadow barking so I looked outside to see what was going on. Robert dropping off Mary. I closed the door quick (peeked out the front door) and yelled BETH! MARY! and she came out to see and sighed. I asked if she was going to help. She said, with the yard fine, but not that mess in the kitchen. Mary kept pressuring her and I to help with it so Beth came back here and called her Mom. I kept hearing her mom bitching about her, Phillip Mike and I. I finally got sick of hearing her talking shit about me while I was right here and could be told this shit. So I'm like, if she has shit to say about me, please, have her tell me so I can hear it myself rather than whatever filters down to me. I heard Kelly on the phone say "What? Yeah! Why not? Give him the phone! Give him the phone Beth!" Beth starts to cry and is like fine, hands me the phone. Beth left the room and basically Kelly was having her own conversation obviously pissed and over stressed. I was pretty calm the whole time and after the fifth time hearing we're all a bunch of kids who don't do anything I hung up on her. I was counting. I gave her 5 rude ass comments before I hung up.. haha.... I was thinking, Phillip hung up on her and Mike is dodging calls.. fuck it -click-

After that I went to talk to Beth and she locked the door. She seemed pissed at me but I guess she was just crying because she's tired of all the fighting. I came in here and sat down then when I went to see if she was OK she wasn't inside anywhere. She went outside to help weed so I went out there and asked what she was going to pull so I could help. She didn't answer and I asked if she wasn't talking to me. She said she wasn't talking to anyone and looked like she was going to start crying so I was like, how can I help you if you wont even talk to me? and went back inside. I went out a little while later and asked again and she told me. I told her that I'm not the bad guy, I just wanted direct communication and didn't want to have Kelly talking to everyone about me but me. I thought that was fair. She ended up talking again and we started weeding a lot faster.

I felt bad because I was pulling weeds and couldn't see a walking stick on one of the weeds. Pulled it's back leg off. It was kind of funny because it was trying to get away so I helped it onto the sidewalk under the stairs so it was out of the way. I've never seen one follow someone around with their head watching them somehow looking pissed hahahaha... Saw another HUGE one that looked positively badass later on.

Beth had to go at 2pm. After that I helped Mary inside by myself 'till EIGHT THIRTY. At which time I was so damn tired and my hands hurt from chemicals, I said fuck this. I got up early to work on audio and we fell asleep late. Wasn't expecting manual labor. Just mental labor. Had pills to keep me sharp for that. hah. But no. So I stopped to eat.

Whole place is fucking CLEAN though. Pretty cool. Phillip is super pissed. Mike doesn't really care. They were both MIA. I told them they're going to pay. haha. I found out through the course of the day Becky told Kelly that I was skipping out on Saturday. Which explains entirely her lack of response. Took her off my Myspace friend's list and told her don't ask me for favors anymore. She didn't respond. Oh well. Game over, there.

Posted by pointofaccess at 6:48 PM | Permalink | Comments

glad to be at the three day weekend intersection. cleaning up the room here so I can work through most of the weekend. I think Beth works both weekend days so I'm going to make the best out of it.. work on audio I think all I can. have lots of ideas I want to get working on.. I wanted to have The River of Piss at least mostly done by the end of summer but I'm a distractable fuck. I don't mind too much seeing as I did vents 1-7 in like 3 years... not too bad.. just taking a long ass break :P


Becky is into Wicca. Kelly is freaking out. Why? She just doesn't know the religion too much yet. It's all good. I know plenty of wiccans. I haven't heard anything about a few aspects I've heard Becky's into. But it doesn't sound bad to me.


Thursday morning Shorty got up at 7:15.. was amazing. we were all ready and at the workshop by 8:10. Was fucking cool. Today he got up around 7:45 but we still made it to the workshop around 8:30. Not bad. The CD I made seriously wakes him up. And he doesn't complain nearly as much as he did with other methods. Very cool.

Posted by pointofaccess at 9:28 AM | Permalink | Comments